UPDATE: April 2. It is with a very heavy heart that I pass along the news that Karlene Lindenmuth passed away today, April 2. Rest in peace, Karlene. I've been wearing partial dentures for over 1. It can happen quickly and is VERY PAINFUL!!! I'm so incredibly TIRED, DIZZY, and OUT OF BREATH! Sometimes I really this . PMI have been in the hospital for the past couple of weeks. My parents had to take me to the ER Halloween morning. I was having severe stomach pains and couldn't even stand up. Many painful tests were performed and it was concluded that I had some type of intestinal blockage. PicoTrace is a spin-off company, founded by members of the Faculty of Geosciences of the University of Göttingen, Germany. Our University has a well known tradition. R ecently I went to a clam shack for the first time ever. To those of you for whom a clam shack is about as exotic as an Old Town, this may not seem like a. Find out which top balance transfer credit cards offer competitive features and 0% intro APRs for up to 21 months. Learn how to pay no interest until 2018. Laughter is the best medicine. Consider this dose of great doctor jokes your official prescription for funny. They stuck a huge NG tube up my nose and got out 2 liters of fluid and gunk from my stomach. I hadn't had a BM in almost 3 weeks (altho I'm not eating much). I was in such awful pain!! My weight is continuing to fall. I now weigh barely 7. I cannot even care for myself. My skin is turning an ugly yellowish color. I honestly don't know how I am still alive. My doctors suggested a Gastric Pacemaker be placed in my stomach bc my digestive system is so very messed up. But they are not sure if I would make it thru the surgery. Thank you to all who are keeping me in your thoughts and prayers. I appreciate it so very much, as does my family! Mood: cold. 2. 3rd, 2. PMI'm still here. I don't know why God has kept me on earth for this long with this disease. My physical body is literally disappearing. I feel such guilt and shame. I am sorry to everyone for being such a disappointment. I am sorry for failing to fight and beat this disease. I am sorry I have given up!! I fought it for 2. I have nothing left. It's all in a day's work to share these funny office jokes, puns, and laughs. Wedding Diet + Workout. A lot of brides want to lose weight or tone up before their wedding day. Wedding Beauty Advice; 6-Month Wedding Fitness Plan;. Home \ Controversial Topics \ The Best Wedding Crash Diets. I don't want people who are fighting this terrible monster to read this and think, ! I just don't see it for myself. And I'm so very sorry for that!! I'm so very ashamed!! The physical pain and discomfort from starving and from the malnutrition is still not as bad as the discomfort of leaving my anorexia behind- -the terror I would feel. And deep down I know that is CRAZY!! It's been ME for so long, it's who I am. So many of you have responded to my posts with such love and kindness and I can't tell you how much that means to me!! It touches my heart so much, I can actually . I don't know if it's my pain meds or what, but I feel like I am sea sick ALL the time!! And when I feel like that, that MONSTER inside my head tells me I am gaining weight, even if I've only had tiny bites of yogurt all day long! I wish so much that there was a miracle drug out there that would just make eating disorders just disappear. They take everything and everyone from you!! I love all of you out there struggling with this and to those keeping me in your hearts and prayers! I can't thank you enough!! Please take care of yourselves and FIGHT!! PM7. 2. 9 lbs. What is wrong with me?! I feel like I am going crazy! This disease is consuming me and I can't stand it! I saw my doctor on Friday. He raised my Percocet. I feel sorry for him bc he is so worried about me and doesn't know how else to help. These workouts and diet strategies will. I have yet another kidney infection, but we're not going to treat it, just try and control my pain. I'm so confused and scared. So many emotions all jumbeled up inside of me. I don't know who I am anymore. I feel like a puppet being controlled by this monster pulling the strings. My body is shutting down not only physically, but emotionally and spiritually as well. I was with my family this weekend and it was an incredibly uncomfortable weekend!! Just seeing the look on all of their faces and the way they act toward me. My dad looks at me with disgust and that hurts. Even my nieces and nephews stare at me and seem to be afraid of me. I am so very ashamed and consumed with guilt! What have I done to myself? I've ruined not only my own life, but the lives of those I love so dearly. I'm so very very tired and exhausted and the pain is getting hard to control. God, please forgive me for not being who you made me to be!! Mood: confused. If only you could get the treatment you so desperately need and deserve. PMAs usual, another rough day. I had to take more of my pain meds as soon as they would wear off, thus I slept most of the day. I've been having bad nightmares that leave me petrified, most of them about my abuser, and sometimes I can feel his presence in my apartment. I am starting to have a hard time keeping anything down. It literally takes me nearly all day to eat just a 6 oz. Otherwise I get terrible severe stomach pains and sometimes can't keep even that little bit down. My doctor wants to see me next week to check things out and we will talk about getting me on some pain medicine that is an extended release kind. I don't want to feel drugged all day long. I have been feeling really down and very hopeless. My heart is acting so funny, palpitating so badly I briefly pass out. I can usually sit or lie down before I hit the floor. My weight is around 7. I hurt so badly, emotionally and physically. The ED voices in my head haunt me day and night, screaming at me that I am a bad lazy fat slob. I am so very tired! Mood: lonely. 1. 2th, 2. PMToday has been a rough day. I'm very nauseated and my ulcers are acting up. I've had a little bit of yogurt, a . So that's all I've had in the last few days. I can't even keep fluids down. I think I have another kidney infection. I get them so easily now. But I feel it's pointless going to the dr. I get too cold standing there in just my undies. I've been starting to give some of my things away. Like my beloved Spongebob collection I've been giving to my 2 year old niece. She's crazy about him. Gotta go lie down. Thank you all to are sending me your prayers. They are much appreciated! Love, Karlene. Mood: nauseated. I have read your comments (those who have sent them, and Medusa) and I'm sorry I haven't replied, but I greatly appreciate them all. I'm hanging in there. It's getting harder and harder to make it through each day. Alot of pain and alot of sleeping. I'm exhausted and out of breath much of the time. Just walking hurts. I spent the Labor Day weekend with my family and I talked to them about my anorexia, really for the first time in all these years. We cried together and were open and honest with one another. It was hard, but a relief. We have all come to accept my illness and impending death. God touched all of our hearts that night and gave us a sense of peace. My doctors and therapists are still working on the Hospice thing. It's taking a while, but I think it just may work out. Thank you to all who are keeping me and my family in their prayers. I appreciate it so much. Love to all~Karlene. Mood: tired. 2. 2nd, 2. PMI want to apoligize to all of my readers. I'm so sorry I am such a downer, a loser, a failure, a quiter. Here I am trying to keep you guys fighting this awful disease and I, myself, am giving up. What kind of inspiration is that? I just want to tell my story in hopes that you guys can see what this awful disease can take away from you. Some of you are in the beginning of your disease and I beg you to get help NOW! The sooner you fight it and live in recovery, the better chances you have of actually having a great happy and healthy future. After 2. 2 years of being in and out of treatment centers and hospitals, being fed with PEG tubes, NG tubes, fighting infection after infection, fighting painful stomach ulcers and a hiatal hernia, a completely damaged esophagus from years of purging, kidney infections, a failing weakening heart, and failing organs, my body just can't take it anymore. And the pain is excrusiating! Tonight has been a rough night. I got up to try to make my way to the restroom and passed out. I could actually feel my heart stop beating and the blood rush from my head and extremeties before it happened. That's not the first time that's happened. I'm just glad I didn't crack open my head. Anyway, I just hope and pray to you all who are suffering, PLEASE don't give up. Fight while there is still fight inside you. I've never cared enough about myself to fight for ME! You CAN beat this.. My prayers and love to you all! Mood: drained! 2. PMI found out that I don't qualify for Hospice. They say I have to have a diagnosis of a disease that will kill me in less than 6 months. I honestly don't believe I have 6 months and neither do my doctors. I need to talk to my physician because I know he will let them know the seriousness of this. Many times I go to bed not expecting to wake up in the morning. Do they know how much pain I am in? Do they know I am literally wasting away? My parents/family need this hospice thing as much as I do. My doctor will still continue to supply me with any pain medication I need (at least I hope he will). I sleep most of the day because even sitting up tires me out so. I just took several Percocet along with Xtra strength Tylenol, Xanax and Ativan. I can feel it kicking in, but I still feel I need more. The pain is pretty bad. My stomach is killing me. And when I have a stomach ache, it makes me feel FAT!! Weird I know. God, I am ready when you are! Mood: nauseated. 1. PMI saw my primary care physician and he is all for the Hospice thing. He is very saddened by it, but honors my wishes. He is more than willing to work with hospice to help them make me as comfortable as possible in my final days. My digestive system hardly works anymore. I take sips of water and nurse tiny spoonfuls of FF yogurt, but that is all I can do. They couldn't even get a BP on me this morning because it was so low. My mind is going quickly as I forget most of what I am doing. My heart palpitations are very frequent now. They are worried about me staying alone. My whole body is eating away at itself. I am thinking about getting a walker as it is hard to walk standing straight up, let alone walk at all without some assistance. I am still very worried about how I will pay my monthly bills just living off my disability checks. That is stress I don't need right now. Your love and prayers are still much needed. Please pray for not only my family, but for my financial situation as well. I am so appreciative to you all right now.
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